Searching for What is Right in Front of You

Do you ever have one of those days, or maybe weeks where you're searching for your glasses that are on your face? Or your keys that are in your hands? I know I can't be the only one to have these mental blocks where everything that seems to be so obvious is so much more difficult then usual. I find with myself I love to over complicate things. Life can be pretty simple, I mean just think of the basics. Food, water, sleep and shelter. If you have all four of those things every day, you are pretty well off my friend. But then the first world problems or "Park Ave problems" as my mom would say peeks its little ugly head in. Then comes the "there's nothing GOOD in the refrigerator to eat" because you'd rather chipotle over last night's leftovers. Or "I have nothing GOOD to wear" as you stare into a walk in closet filled of clothing that is more then just good. It is so easy to see your problems as problems because it's your life and their near to your heart. It isn't as easy to see that there are starving children in our own country who sometimes don't have a meal for dinner and don't know when or where the next one will come from. 

If you're like me you have to visualize to really make sense of a situation. When I was 13 my family and I took a trip to the Dominican Republic. One day we went on a snorkeling excursion off of the resort. In a small village we traveled to this beautiful beach to start our tour. On our way there, small children in barely any clothing were begging for food and money. At 13 years old I had more then some adults did in this struggling village. It was a horrible sight to see and witness. That has always stuck with me knowing that while I may at times act ungrateful or take things I have for granted, life could always be much harder and much worse. 

I recently more then ever felt like my body needed a new challenge. When I first started my fitness journey in 2012 I knew I had no idea what I was doing or where to start. I knew I didn't feel comfortable going into a gym and I wanted something to really help make a difference in my life. I discovered INSANITY by Shaun T and it  changed my world. Looking back on pictures from before and after doing these dvd's I saw a huge difference in my body. I recently felt like I wanted that change again. I searched on Groupon, local gyms and asked around for any good group classes. I finally settled on a new spin studio because I knew it would be a great workout. It took a lot for me to actually purchase the package and get my butt up and out of bed at 5:30AM (on a Monday not to mention) but I did it. I went in with an open mind and hoped this would be my new fix. The class was good, the instructor was the least friendly and welcoming person so overall the experience was eh. My second class the instructor was absolutely amazing but the workout was below average. My third experience was a voicemail dealing with cancellations. Being that I had been in the fitness and sales industry already for a long time, I know how these things work. It's funny how a few sentences could completely taint your view on something. I had cancelled a class I suppose too last minute for the business and received a voicemail reprimanding me for not doing it according to their policy. That was it for me. No more spin classes, they were no longer getting my money for services. All I could think to myself was "didn't they know hard it was for me to actually muster up the courage to go there" or "didn't they understand what proper customer service is". The questions in my head were running around in circles

I know and knew (at the time) that it wasn't much more then business. They cared about their money, not their clients and that's fine. That's how some businesses operate and that's why most don't last so long. In an industry like the fitness one, you have to be able to stand out and be unique to truly be successful. So now I was back to square one, struggling looking for something to help me. 

I was downloading apps, looking for a fitness coach, a new gym, really anything to help inspire me again. Then it hit me. Like literally hit me in the face. It fell off my shelf and hit me in the head. My INSANITY dvd's. They had been put away for sometime now, probably since I moved home from school. I was looking at the box and thought, "what I have been searching for this whole time, has been right in front of me". I wanted something or someone to inspire me and change the game like how it all started. I didn't need something new though, I needed what got me there to begin with. I realized that while I didn't want to give up my typical gym routine, I just wanted to add something to it. Something that worked with my schedule and on my time. Clearly a class doesn't revolve around my world, unless its at the convenience of my own finger tips!